A Year In Reading: 2015

I’m stealing this idea shamelessly from The Millions, and, emboldened by the first act of kleptomania, I’m going even further and stealing the seasonal format from Garth Risk Hallberg’s Year In Reading post there. He’s extremely compelling in his linkage of personal life and literary life: very worth emulating, and perhaps a touch more interesting than endless rehashed plot summaries.


2015 didn’t start well. I’m never at my strongest, psychologically, after Christmas. Seasonal affective disorder kicks in; the weather is bad; I forget to eat well and don’t want to exercise. I was still in a job for which I felt underqualified and in the execution of which I remained unsupported. Reading on my commute became a lifeline. In January I read a good deal of exotically-located fiction, including books set in the Amazon rainforest (Euphoria by Lily King), Tokyo (parts of Ghostwritten by David Mitchell), and south Florida (Jeff VanderMeer’s Southern Reach Trilogy), but the standout was Toni Morrison’s Beloved. I’d never before read her fierce, haunting story of a former slave woman whose dead baby returns in the form of the mysterious Beloved, but it knocked my socks off. Everyone should read it.

I was also entranced by Michel Faber’s creepy alien novel Under the Skin, which ought to make everyone who reads it a lifelong vegetarian. It’s got such a simple central conceit, but once you get wise to it, the story’s horror is only deepened and enhanced. Catherine Chanter’s eco-thriller The Well was my reading material of choice during a five-day bout of illness that combined the common cold and acute depression; once I swam out of my nest of duvets and Lemsip and BelVita, and away from Chanter’s hallucinatory England (in which not a drop of rain has fallen for years), I realized that my mental health was in a perilous state, and needed attending to.

Fortunately, the end of winter came into sight just as I discovered some absolute crackers: Sarah Hall’s latest novel, The Wolf Border, is the best book I’ve read all year. It’s about a Cumbrian observational biologist who is hired as a consultant on a project to reintroduce grey wolves to the North of England. Along the way she discovers that she is pregnant by a former colleague, and the novel is as much about navigating motherhood (and the complexity of her relationship with her own, now dead, mother) as it is about lupine behavior. The descriptions of the Cumbrian landscape are spot on and chest-achingly beautiful; Hall’s knack for capturing a character in a few tight analytical paragraphs is reminiscent of George Eliot. It is so, so good. It should have been on the Baileys Prize list, and the Booker Prize one. Please go and read it. (The final winter read that I loved: The Light Years, by Elizabeth Jane Howard. It is a simple joy to read, a thick, funny, poignant, surprisingly contemporary family saga set in the late 1930s, and it has four sequels. Excellent.)


Things got better in the spring. I looked out of my office window one day as I was about to leave and saw that it was still just about light, and my heart lifted. I also decided that this blog was to become a full-time book blog, and that too provided a sense of purpose.

April was a very good reading month in terms of sheer quantity, but two books particularly stood out to me. Everybody Knows This Is Nowhere, the debut novel from Alice Furse, is a hymn to the zero-hours-contract office worker, a book for our times. Her unnamed protagonist manages to extract meaning from her life despite the mind-numbing tedium of her job in data entry; by the end of the book, it looks like she might be approaching happiness. A good lesson for recent graduates: things do get better, eventually. In the same month, I finally got round to Emily St. John Mandel’s Station Eleven and was utterly bowled over by its smooth, fluid prose and its humane conception of the end of the world.

It’s had a lot of love already, though, so how about an unjustly neglected work: Grits, Niall Griffiths’s dense, hallucinatory, Welsh answer to Trainspotting. I never knew there were so many different ways to get high. It sucks you in like addiction itself; you start to feel dizzy and overwhelmed, reading its polyphonic voices, but you can’t let go. Finally, near the end of spring and as I was starting a new (much better) job, I came across Belinda McKeon’s Tender. The story of a close friendship between two Irish students in the ’90s which develops into something more–but only for one of them–it’s a devastating portrait of unrequited longing, youthful fuck-uppery, and the torment that young gay people suffer in environments where they cannot openly be themselves. Reading it is agonizing but also strangely comforting: you can know that other people have felt love and been hurt, but Tender is one of the few books that makes you really believe you’re not alone.


Summer was a game-changer in a lot of ways. I got serious about my own reviewing efforts. I stepped down from my post at Quadrapheme, where I had been managing editor, when I found I was no longer comfortable with the magazine’s politics; it’s the biggest decision on the grounds of social conscience that I’ve ever had to make, though I don’t regret it. I met the Chaos and fell hard. He talked to me about things I hadn’t seriously considered for years–maths, logic, computing–and realms of thought I had long considered out of bounds for a literature student like me lit up again.

During this time I read some incredibly good books. Ali Smith’s Baileys Prize-winning How to be both was impossible to review; how could I do justice to a novel that encompassed artistic integrity, grief at losing a parent, multiple chronologies, and the development of technologies across the centuries from fresco painting to the iPad? I couldn’t. But I strongly encourage you to read it. Cheryl Strayed’s collection of columns for the Rumpus, Tiny Beautiful Things, has already been lauded on this blog, but it too was a life-saver this summer, read at just the right time and striking just the right tone. It would make a perfect stocking stuffer (or indeed sub-arboreal offering) for literally almost anyone, and it’s not often I give such a blanket recommendation.

On the train on the way to work in the mornings, and on the bus on the way back, I read Donald Ray Pollock’s rural-noir short story collection, Knockemstiff, about the trap of poverty and despair in southern Ohio. I was also blown away (heh) by Patricia Smith’s collection of poetry about Hurricane Katrina, Blood Dazzler, and Jesmyn Ward’s National Book Award-winning Salvage the Bones, a raw and elemental novel set in the Mississippi Gulf during the same hurricane. It, too, should be more widely read and admired; Ward is an excellent writer whose protagonist, Esch, is a black girl compared explicitly within the text to icons of Western culture such as Medea. It’s a powerful, impressive annexation of “elite” literary history.

But the best books I read this summer were in August, not least Marlon James’s A Brief History of Seven Killings, which I tipped for the Booker before it won. It’s a completely immersive novel, its cast of characters vast and simultaneously tightly interwoven. Meanwhile, William Golding’s novel of Neanderthal-human cultural clash, The Inheritors, rearranged my ideas of how language and abstract thought work while also providing a heartbreaking plot. Finally, the summer ended with a rainy bank holiday weekend in Abingdon, where I read Sara Taylor’s dynamite novel-in-short-stories The Shore in a coffee shop and wept openly at its vivid portrayal of the simultaneous beauty and horrifying violence of Virginia’s Tidewater region.

…And then everything got insane. I applied for another job and got it. I moved to London and into editorial web publishing. I moved in with the Chaos. (My parents, amazingly, didn’t have to be revived with smelling salts when informed.) The books, equally amazingly, kept up. The magical (and magisterial) Neal Stephenson entered my reading life with Cryptonomicon, a virtuosic novel about computers, coding, WWII, and freedom of information–timely in 1999, when it was first published, and timely now. Stephenson is a brilliantly funny, dry, erudite writer and I’m planning to read his whole backlist. Another mind-blowing read came from China Miéville, whose novel Embassytown addresses language, metaphor, power, imperialism and addiction in a faraway-alien-planet setting. It’s worth a graduate thesis, and I’m delighted to see that scholars are starting to produce serious work on Miéville; he deserves it.

October was the Month of Grim Beauty. It started with Helen Macdonald’s memoir-cum-hawking-treatise H Is For Hawk, which, like Station Eleven, has already been much lauded but fuck it, I’ll add my voice to the general hue and cry. It’s a great and beautiful book. Macdonald writes like a dream; the words slip down cleanly but make a huge impact as they go, and she draws an unflinching but undramatic portrait of herself as someone struck by grief and behaving, as even she understands, a little bit oddly in its wake. Simultaneously raw and controlled, it deserves its Costa Award win and really should not be missed, by anyone at all. Another powerful and heartbreaking read, Max Porter’s Grief Is the Thing With Feathers, channels Ted Hughes’s mythopoeic Crow to help a London widower and his two young sons cope with their bereavement. Goes down in one sitting; stays with you for much, much longer. Sandra Newman’s The Country of Ice Cream Star, a saga of post-apocalyptic America where only black and Hispanic children have survived a hideous disease, forced me to reconsider my mental defaults in a way that few books do; meanwhile, Naomi J. Williams’s debut novel Landfalls dealt with an eighteenth-century French scientific naval expedition by juggling multiple points of view, managing to narrate each new chapter with a distinct, realistic and totally engaging voice.

Finally, last month: Jeannette Winterson’s modernized retelling of The Winter’s TaleThe Gap of Time, navigated possible anachronism with aplomb, showing that Shakespeare’s ideas can be applied to present-day situations, and that issues such as jealousy, cruelty, forgiveness and redemption will never cease to be relevant. Katherine Carlyle, the new novel from Rupert Thomson, presented us with a self-possessed young female protagonist who fully owns her sexuality; the sumptuous landscape descriptions are merely the icing on the cake. I also recently started my project to read all the winners of the Women’s Prize for Fiction. So far my favorite has been Half of a Yellow Sun, by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie, which kept me enraptured on Tube journeys to and from work for a week. It’s not, in my opinion, as smooth a ride as Americanah, but my goodness, it’s still a terrific novel, an exploration of the Biafran conflict that humanizes a war mostly used in the West as a rhetorical device. Finally, the Belgian writer Annelies Verbeke was totally new to me until last week, but her short story collection Assumptions kept me hooked for a full day; the poignant misfires between characters, the way that people try to connect and don’t quite manage it, are subtly managed and deeply affecting.

I realize that this is way, way too long already, but if you’ve gotten this far, that was my year in reading: the books that really stood out. And, for those of you who really like numbered lists, here are my absolute top ten books of the year, in rough but by no means definitive order (except for #1, of course).

1. The Wolf Border, by Sarah Hall

2. H Is For Hawk, by Helen Macdonald

3. Tiny Beautiful Things, by Cheryl Strayed

4. Cryptonomicon, by Neal Stephenson

5. A Brief History of Seven Killings, by Marlon James

6. Katherine Carlyle, by Rupert Thomson

7. Station Eleven, by Emily St. John Mandel

8. Annihilation, by Jeff VanderMeer

9. Under the Skin, by Michel Faber

10. The Light Years, by Elizabeth Jane Howard

Coming soon: this year’s dishonorable mentions/just plain misfires–the books I didn’t get on with, for obvious or obscure reasons.



24 thoughts on “A Year In Reading: 2015

  1. What a lovely way to present your year of reading! I so agree with you that books find us and we find them at certain points in our lives, that we colour the stories with our moods and experiences, but they also affect our own thoughts and even our decisions at times. I’m glad you are ending the year in a much better position than when you started… and what a wonderful bookish journey!

    1. Thank you! I always think that the fears and joys people bring to the books they pick up are at least as interesting as whatever’s between the covers–The Millions’s series is so good at exploring that.

  2. LOVE. I’ve picked up half of that list of ten over the course of the year and it has definitely been a ballast. Also, I love, love love Tiny Beautiful Things. I think I lent my copy to someone who never returned it but for the life of me I can’t remember who it was. So lovely and so essential.

    1. Such brilliant, moving, supportive books–it’s been a good year. Buy yourself a new copy of Tiny Beautiful Things for Christmas! You deserve it. Sugar would agree.

  3. I agree – that’s a really nice way to review the year. I’m starting to think about my own best reads this year – I read and loved Station Eleven last year, I’m not sure the Jeff Vandermeer (I read all three parts this year) will make the cut for me – I’ve read none of your other picks, although I have several waiting for me on the shelves, so it’s great to know you loved them. Particularly looking forward to the Rupert Thomson.

    1. I read all three of the VanderMeer too, but the first one was so outstandingly creepy that I actually found sleeping difficult after reading it, so it seemed worthy! You’ll really like the Rupert Thomson, I promise.

  4. I loved the way you did this – so glad you stole the idea from someone else! 🙂
    I like that you don’t always read what everyone else is reading, and I agree that the books we love best are the ones that we read right when we need to be reading them. Blogger book lists are good that way – I find them much more personal than other best-of-the-year lists.
    Thanks for sharing your best books, as well as the story of your year!

    1. What is it they say about how “great artists steal”? 😉

      I’d like to be reading more of each year’s new releases, but I’ve got so much to catch up on, and I figure people may get tired of New York Times-style Best Books lists (we can all name their contents: A Little Life, et al.) Thanks for reading, and for your lovely encouragement; it’s so heartening!

  5. This was really enjoyable to read. Amazing books — I read How to Be Both at the end of 2014 and absolutely loved it and I still think about it now and then. I hope 2016 turns out to be another great year of reading and a little smoother sailing in other life areas.

    1. Isn’t it astonishing? The image of George filming with Francesco looking over her shoulder will haunt me for months. And thank you 🙂 Everything seems to be evening out now. It was about bloody time!

  6. Loved reading about your year in this way. It’s perfect for bookish folk as I’ve spent most of my life remembering events thanks to the books that accompanied them. It sounds like it’s been a full and sometimes frantic year that’s ended up really good. That deserves a cheer! I completely agree about The Wolf Border – absolutely fantastic novel.

  7. What a great reading year, I enjoyed the breakdown in seasons. I’m very curious too see the duds as well.

    This has reminded me I need to read A Brief History of Seven Killings!!

  8. Seeing your reading as part of the cycle of the seasons is so interesting! My wishlist is groaning under the strain of adding so many books: Grief is a Thing With Feathers, Salvage the Bones, Country of the Ice Cream Star, Katherine Carlyle…

    So glad to see Neal Stephenson and William Golding here too. Neal Stephenson has such an astonishingly huge BRAIN – his Baroque Cycle books (which are sort-of sequels to Cryptonomicon) blew my mind. So much fun, so much 17th century science. Have you read Golding’s The Spire? Incredibly powerful and provoking; definitely up there with The Inheritors as my favourite of his.

    1. I’m desperately keen to read the Baroque Cycle (I think my boyfriend has lent his copies out to a friend of his, so I can get those back from him soon), and although I haven’t read The Spire, it was recommended to me in the same breath as The Inheritors. Golding is so much more interesting than Lord of the Flies, it turns out.

      Also, DO read Salvage the Bones, Grief Is…, The Country of Ice Cream Star, and Katherine Carlyle. They are all absolutely, unutterably excellent.

  9. I’m catching up here. You sold me on The Wolf Border. I contemplated doing a “year in reading” type post, but it seemed daunting. You did it with such style!

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